Do You Ever Almost Laugh?

       This is probably a strange title, right? Well, it is a weird title. Sometimes I laugh because when something else seems to go wrong or happens right after the last thing, sometimes it is all you can do. This time it wasn't as much out of frustration or being super upset, but because I know God MUST be using us, at least that's what I am hoping. That these constant trials with Oliver would not be happening for no reason, actually I know they aren't.
 In Acts 14:22 it is said, "strengthening the souls of the disciples, encouraging them to continue in the faith, and saying that through many tribulations we must enter the kingdom of God." This is true for our lives here as Christians.

       We went to Oliver's 2 year well child visit and he is growing in length! That is great news because it means his body is making growth hormone, which is what we were hoping for since his brother's body does not. His head is normal too, YAY! We do rejoice in all the good!!! But his weight is another story. He went from 0.26% 6 months ago ( which wasn't where it should have been) to 0.02% this time. This is concerning because to continue to fall even though he is gaining height means something might not be right. The doctor mentioned "failure to thrive" but decided before going forward with testing him already he would put him on a high fat diet for the next 3 months. I did push to get more info out of him, and because he knows we deal with a lot of health issues within the family, he gladly opened up about his thoughts. He said Crohn's (I have it) is a possibility and a few other auto-immune diseases that can go hand in hand with JIA, that start off with causing weight gain issues.  It could also be something entirely not related to auto immune but he wants to wait before doing more tests. 

     I know God has been using these trials in our lives, because many of YOU have reached out to tell us, and it truly helps and encourages us to keep going knowing He is using each hardship for His glory. The joy that comes is amazing! Also, knowing that Oliver is so happy, even when he is going through all this shows us that God is good and is giving him joy. Oliver is still limping off and on but is doing great otherwise. He is so spunky, sweet, and wild. I have been loving every moment because God has numbered our days. Yours, mine, our kids', all of us have only a certain number of days here, so why waste a moment of it? 

    As you heard in my last post I do deeply struggle, but I know, foundationally,  that my God IS always good, has infinite knowledge and cares for my kids WAY more than I ever could. He knows what the future looks like , and is the One who ordained all of it, and He WILL receive the glory for all of this. 

    It is so comforting that my eyes have been opened to these things. What a blessing to suffer for Christ. As hard and humbling and devastating as it can be, I do praise Him for all of it, and I pray you can too. Please pray with us for joy through these things!

"As we trust God with the things in life that we may never understand, we are transformed. We may never know why we are going through trials. But we can take comfort in knowing there is always a reason for our suffering — 10,000 reasons. Reasons that are bigger and more magnificent than anything we can imagine.

One day our faith will be as sight, and we will see all of God’s glorious purposes in our trials. But for now, as we wait, we must trust him.

There is always a “why” to our pain. We may never understand it in this life, but this we can know: As we surrender our questions to him, God will answer us with nothing less than himself."